Testimony

So the second conference the team decided to change things up a bit. Now, I am a planner. I like to know the plan and I think and prepare for the plan as time goes by. I am also a perfectionist when it comes to presenting, or teaching, etc. Well, all this got thrown out the window on the third day of the second conference. You see, I was sitting in a chair supporting Pastor Luke and Pastor Boonchu as they were up on stage teaching. Then, all of a sudden, without warning, they asked that Sarah and I come up on stage and give our testimonies. I didn't have time to find Bible Verses or place an outline together of the direction that I wanted to go with my testimony. And well...my issue of being in control and not giving it to God was right in my face. So, Sarah went first. I wish I could say that I remember her testimony...but the butterflies in my stomach were getting bigger by the second and I don't a thing she said. Within a few minutes, I was standing on stage, with a microphone, in front of 500 people. I started off with the fact that I have been raised by Christian parents. That from a very young age I have achknowledged and accepted Christ as My Lord and Savior....then I went on...I drew a blank...I told the group to hold on a second...because I could not give my testimony on my own. I put my hands over my eyes and I asked God, "Please, speak through me...I want my words to be yours...help me not to ramble but to share the truth of the difference you have made in my life...Use me to help the youth in the audience to see you glorified." After this Praise the Lord, I had clear direction. You see I struggle with plans and being in control of issues. I neglect to admit that it is really God's plan and I need to trust Him with it. I know the right Christiand answers because I have been "well churched" (On a tangent-When using a translator for things like "well churched" or "it blew up in my face", etc...it doesn't translate...it was funny trying to explain my sayings...55555). I have believed in God for as long as I remember. God has always been A PART of my life. But it was not until I cancelled my wedding that I realized that God needed to be my ENTIRE life. It was not until this time that I have truly realized that His plan is the best and no matter the humiliation, the pain, or the suffering that I may go through in life...I can stand in front of anyone and say that I have complete Joy because of Christ alone. With Him being my entire life...It far outways the negatives that life will throw at you. I am blessed to walk with God each step of the day. I desire God's Will in my Life. And I ask that God helps me each day to easily give Him the reigns and stop trying to take control; to learn to fully let go and trust HIM. I thank God for the Joy He gives and the eternal outlook I have because of what He has done for me! So, therefore, those of you who do not know, my favorite verse that I quote/pray everyday is "I have set the LORD always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. -Psalms 16:8

Later I found out that many youth had questions about my Testimony and people wanted to hear more. Please pray with me that God will use my testimony to help others to come to Christ, lean on Him, desire His ways, and make Him their everything!!